Eventually, His Spirit led me down the path of digging past the English surface. I knew there was more. I knew I required more. I needed His Presence, His healing, His Sustaining Word. I needed A SANE MIND (for the sake of all things HOLY!) in order to do this thing called ‘wifing, parenting…living’.
Did you read that? HE humbled me and let me hunger and then HE fed me with His Heavenly Bread (that I didn’t know even existed!); in order to make me, Carmen, KNOW/UNDERSTAND that I do not LIVE by mere worldly bread, but BY EVERY WORD THAT COMES OUT OF THE MOUTH OF YHWH.
His Spirit was always speaking to me, throwing out His ‘cord of hope’ (tikvah) for me to take hold of. It was my very darkness that HE used to show me His Light. Since NOTHING IN THIS WORLD is able satisfy the heart that ‘longs to be ONE with ADONAI again’, HE so tenderly and generously GIVES US HIS MANNA TO LIVE BY each day.
I was really good at that one!